Hey Friends, 

Hows everyone today....Well, today was rough, as much as I dont like to mention it on here, like Ive said it before, I have my bad days and my good ones. Often times my bad ones over run my good ones unfortunately which really sucks because it takes away my time with the girls....sadly enough and today was one of those days...:( To explain a little Ive had two back surgeries that were suppose to help and fix me well....folks to say the least if anything they made it worse...and with for lack of better words mental issues...depression that Ive battling for over 12 years, bi-polar and anxiety and some days migraines, I tend to spend some days in bed for the day. Lot of the time it is for my pain of my back and nerves that just debilitate me and if your not familiar with chronic pain and things like that I don't think you would understand what we go thru but I hope with this blog, More people are more understanding. I am on SSDI and the fact that the word of being disabled has really affected me mentally as much as i try to think of it a positive way, a way that I get to spend more time with my girls but it still affects me negatively and I am truly trying to fight this battle brewing in my head. If you can understand. I had planned to have two different blogs, one that was all about the girls, a more positive one on life and then a seperate one about my daily battles with pain and life but I guess they all go together one way or another and I will try to keep this one as positive as I can but I will warn ya there are going to be days like today that my health takes over. 

So enough about that. Hows everyone else doing, hopefully better than me? I am all new to this so as I get further along I will add pictures and cute little things to perk it up but I am still learning. So please if anyone comes along as has a few pointers please shout out to me...but please don't be rude to me if you don't like it. Well I am off to check other people blogs...spy if you must to see how people perk theirs up and get my own ideas...I want people to visit and come back. I do have a facebook page linked with this but for some reason I cant get it to come up in the search bar...hmmm...and its really driving me nuts...lol..


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The last couple of days!!!

Well, I know Ive been working on my blog the last couple of days trying new things and just well...simply getting it up and running. Its coming along slowly and I am sure I will still adding things as I go along but I will promise to start updating it more often. 

So, what have we all been up to since I last blogged. Well, hmmm....Took a trip to the wonderful city of Boston and it was by far the best trip in sooo long, I would say. I guess you could say I needed it. I have to say Pork chop is the best road trippin baby to with us. She loved the trip, she was dancin in her carseat, singin along with the tunes, laughing and screaming(out of joy or whatever you want to call it). We decided that after careful planning and some other things that came up for the positive, that it is official we will be Massachusette's residents soon. Other than the good things, just need to start fresh, Babygurl needs to be able to experience things and be able to be in a place that she can grow and learn from. Here in Wisconsin there isn't much to learn from except for cows and cheese. LOL... 

I, for one need a change of pace and a new start. I feel like I am in a rut and since my life cant go back to the way it used to be, I have to start new. I was told to look at it this way, I am carving a new path in my life which is a good way to look at it. I need a new routine and I just lost my way here in Wisconsin, If anyone knows how I feel. I am going to be attending the University of Massachusetts-Boston, I am so excited to be attending an actual campus based school, for most of you who know me all Ive been doing is online college courses so this will definitely be a switch for me and I am so looking forward to it, a little scared but confident of the challenge that awaits me.

Hmmm, What else is new...Oh yeah, I dont like to talk about this on this blog but I am having to search out myself of course again for yet another Spine Specialist. In the last month or so Ive had increasing amount of pain that makes it hard to do the simplest household chores and even give pork chop a bath. Thank the good lord for Babygurl because she is my saving grace. Ive been pushing myself to atleast help out with the dishes and vaccuming ever so often, so atleast I feel like Im mom and Im doing my duties as mom, if you know what i mean. I often feel useless or not needed and it does get me down. So Im hopeing that this Spine doctor can do something for me, christ Ive had 2 back surgeries and you would have thought after those two, Id be better. I mean I can handle daily pain but when it interferes with lifes abilities to do simple tasks then I just cant deal with that or accept it. 

Well, off to get the rest of my homework done and ready for bed, Ive been staying up way too late and Pork chop has been getting up way too early than normal. Right, just my luck...Hey!!! Plus, we have had a guest at the house the last couple of nights, my adopted daughter I guess you could call her..I missed her..shes such a sweetie...We had planned on taking her home tonight but we are gonna keep her another night...She's stuck with us...Its okay cause she loves me!!!!

luvs~N~Hugz!!!!
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Facebook page!!

Well, I finally got a little more figured out on linking my facebook page to my blog page, so come visit me at Facebook.com/Angeleyez9911. Still plugging away trying to figure this all out. Thanks for your patience...

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Hey all, Just wanted to jump and let ya'll know of my new facebook page I have linked to here but Im still working on I will be back with the address..lol..Have to figure that one out. Babygurl wants to get on the computer and Yes I have a paper to write so Im off to do that and let her have computer time....


Have a good evening all...

Me!!!

Today is a NEW day!!!

So as I started to write my blog I noticed I have nicknames for my gurls, so I figured I'd better explain first before I went any further. Since the blog is going to be mostly about my life and my gurlz, anyone else whom I talk about and ofcourse is nicknamed we will take it at that point. 

Now my oldest, who is 12 years old, I have always called her "babygurl". No matter how much I've tried to stop I just couldn't so I decided to stop with trying and go with it...Heck why not, Right!! 

Then when I least expected it...boom...I was pregnant!!! Okay, so this was back New Years of 2011 when I found out and flash forward...August 13th, 2011 this sweet gorgeous bundle of love was born. Let me tell ya I never realized how much love a person can have inside of them and for so many different people as a mother has for others and her children. My not so "Porkchop", "Porkchop", was brought to us. Yes I have a philosophy on this one...Yes...Me...that....hehe..I truly believe because of my health problems mainly my back and that I cant work a normal job that God decided it was time I needed to be a Mommy again. Not saying Im not a mommy right now, but a wee little one mommy. Ya know those kind. And Folks that's what he sent me!!!! Fast Forward...Terrible two's at 10 months...EEK!!!! Thank god for older sisters or I would be pulling my hair out and drinking heavily!!..Ha! Wine that is..

 So I decided last night, well...um...I guess we will just say in the wee hours of this morning that I needed to change some things and what better way and a better time to start...NOW!!..Hehe..I know wow, what a way to start my blog huh. Okay at that very moment, 4 a.m well no silly's, you get it right?

So, after the insomnia wore off and I did get a few hours of sleep, Me and the "Porkchop" as I call her hung out for a couple hours while she made music, sang, beat me up and we looked at pictures on my phone while my oldest, I call her my "babygurl", tho shes not really my "babygurl" anymore, snoozed her summer right away. Shes not your average pre-teen by far. And she's not anything like I or probably anyone who is reading this was at that age years, we will just says years, ago. I can remember being outside until it was dark out and not wanting to be inside even when it was blistering out. Tho at that time my parents didn't have to worry who was lingering outside and around the next block either. So I guess I should be happy she wants to be inside by her little ole momma. Tho, sometimes that girl drives me up a wall and others I forget shes even in the house.

  

SO, back on topic...shew..U will notice throughout my blog I will tend to get side tracked but just bear with me please!!! So I decided to get up and hang out with PC, the lonestar snoozer finally woke up and came to life and decided to change her routine around from showers at night, or rather early morning since summer was here, to the minute she gets up to jump into the shower that way she wasn't just laying around the house all day. Well, it worked and she seems to be in better spirits and more awake. I just have to quit my habit of sleeping all day too. I need to figure out on paper because of my adhd, I have to write everything down, I need some kind of schedule so I can get my blogging in, my homework done on a normal time frame and not sleep the whole day away unless I'm fighting my migraines like I have been. Ugh....So now that you have learned some health issues I have, you will find that's not all of them but Im gonna try and not focus on them here and make this a more positive place except ranting about kids and life. You know the fun thing we adults grow up and look forward too!!! Ha!!

Well, It looks like I should work on my homework and figure out this blog a little more since I am so new to it, I hope you all enjoy it if you come across it and if you do, please come back from day to day. I promise to update it daily and add pictures as well. If you do enjoy reading it please leave me your comments and please add anything that I may do to better it. I don't claim to be anything I am not or anything like that. Plain and simple.  IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT PLEASE JUST LEAVE!!! DON'T LEAVE ANY RUDE OR CRUDE COMMENTS OR INSULTS, like I said this is just my life and this is all something new to me so please just leave if you don't like it.